Maybe I can be "The Manipulative Politician" of tomorrow...

It always seems like I always have an excuse ready. Rather than trying to improve myself, I am always ready for an excuse regardless of whether they are true or not.

I have definitely noticed this about myself since I have entered college. In fact, I used to be an innocent child who would consider any excuses unacceptable and feel guilty for the days to come. But, I have changed. I make excuses and hardly have any guilt trips. In fact, I have made some extreme excuse sometimes, and I do feel guilty to some extent but if I don't get the reaction I favor...I actually turn the guilt on them for not being understanding for some situation.

It is really interesting to see how people change...from being an cherubic angel to the world's most convincing manipulator. Of course, I was never in either extreme but still...for example...

If cherubic angel is equal to 1 and manipulator is equal to 10 on a scale of 1 to 10, then I was 3 before and I am probably 6 now. I suppose manipulation will help you in succeeding in the business world, but where did my caring side go? Of course, I still care but not as much!

In fact, I just don't give a damn for most things. It is so interesting to realize that a person like me who cared about every single feeling hardly takes a deep look inside her heart.

Of course, I still cry at movies and get motivated to change the world at the first sign of poverty and so on.

Still, something has changed and I hope I am not on the way of being a politician especially not a corrupt one...maybe one that will change the world for the better by manipulating the corrupt ones that already exist and beat them at their own game...

Maybe just maybe! :)