Fling with a RJ!

So, as I was driving my car with my ghetto music turned up ALL high...and as I was getting lost in the roads, I remembered a past interlude.A past interlude which occurred almost 4 years ago, but it is a sweet memory. It involves me, my radio, my phone, a toll-free number, and a radio jockey named Yash.

So, this is how this escapade started! As you know, I am based in Chicago and this RJ kid was based in New York. He was an RJ on this Indian channel on the radio out here in U.S. He would have a show for 2-4 hours each weekend or so.

Once, I asked him to play a song for me, which was the song that he HAD JUST PLAYED. So, he asked me if I really wanted that song played again, and I said please...! He agreed to play the song for me then...and I still remember it was the song "Aao na..." from Kyun! Ho gaya na!

From there on, I called him a few more times and well he remembered my name since I do have a unique name and you don't come across my names too often. So whenever I called, he would instantly recall who I was and we would talk for a few minutes. Incidentally, I called him when the show was about to end one day, and we talked after the show had ended for almost an extra hour. There was some serious sweet innocent flirting going on from the very first time! ;)

So, he asked me to call again and this became a regular routine on the weekends where we could talk for almost an hour after his show would end or till he was kicked out of the studio.

I still remember the butterflies and all the conversations we had regarding his college life and the college life I aspired to have. Coincidentally, we were both salutatorians at our respective high schools which initiated an instant bond! Of course, the revenge of the nerds! (JUST KIDDING) So, salutatorians are the students who is placed 2nd in the entire school their senior year, just for international audience here.

I can't help but smile at the memories and the little teasings and the flirtations that went between him and me. I saw his picture on facebook or myspace or something and DAMN!!! he was a hottie!!! I usually don't consider too many guys hot and cute, but he was the ultimate dynamic combo!

So, yes...and then of course, we continued talking and getting more interested day by day (Get the hint?). There were times when he would wait for my calls, and he would be waiting and I would be busy sometimes! It was very sweet to listen to his complains regarding that.

But honestly to say, he was one sweet kid and we shared some of the mushiest and corniest times!!! I wonder where did those times ago...why don't I have such incidents anymore? These sweet little attachments that brighten my day and someone else's! ;)

I have had enough smart guys (nerds...well not exactly), but this was someone different. He had the street smarts with the dynamic looks. He was fun and quirky! Who doesn't like that? Of course, he was an RJ so his voice was like sweet honey which I would lose myself in...YUMM!

I thought this post would be more exciting, but it is like a sweet memories that can only be expressed by my SMILE!

My smile can not be written in words...it can simply be seen and understood by the one who it is meant for! ;)

It is not worth it...not about a lesbian lover but a friend!

I woke up this morning
Feeling all blue
With one issue on my mind
That refuses to get a clue

Waking up with nightmares
For the past two weeks
I realize her happiness
Is not worth my sanity

I do care for her
And I will continue to be
But not enough for her
To evade my mindful peace

You might be thinking
That I have changed
But it is a dilemma
That is eating me alive

Wandering the quad
Like a lost soul
So many decisions to be made
By my poor heart core

Never use the heart
In the battle of wits
Or your sympathetic ass
Will end up in a fix

She refuses to listen
Being adamant at every stage
I am not some teaching fairy
That will chastise her every turn

I know I am asking for a bit
But how can I not
These basic courtesies
Should be prevalent in all

I won’t compromise any longer
For the sake of another
This frustration will further built
And eventually I will fall


I won’t ask her to change either
The best way is to separate our paths
Before it is too late and
Becomes a permanent mark

Partially influenced by others
I made my previous decisions
But they are not living it
So I would eventually blame them

I have come to a conclusion and
If my judgment turns out to be an error
I will be solely to blame
And I will live with the result without complain

I am tired of this endless bitching
And constant aggravation
I want to be as direct as possible
And let her finally know

Yes, there is some guilt in leaving
Someone stranded midway
But knowingly killing yourself
Is the worst case of helplessness

I have made a decision and I will let it be
Regardless of whether I will be considered
THE ULTIMATE ADVERSARY