This post is long pending...I started it almost a month ago when I was leaving home but I got delayed...I don't even know if I can gather up the same amount of sentiment that I had when I was initially writing it.
So it is time to say goodbye to my home...I thought the summer would never end but the end is so near now.
In the beginning of the summer, I just wanted summer to end and be back at my college and now...since it is right around the corner...I realized I will miss my family...the constant bickerings...the arguments, the subtle cares, the jokes we played on each other, bursting out in laughter in midst of a heated argument, philsophical conversations about the meaning of life and some uncomfortable conversations that I am sure kids don't have but I broached the subject regardless.
So, the summer was quite tedious but picked up pace in the end. I really needed adventure in the beginning and then...maybe I got some too...but it didn't matter anymore.
As soon I started working, those were almost 10-hour long days and then I would come home all broken and tired. Infact, I used to be a bollywood maniac and I must have seen 2 movies in total the whole summer...(almost 3 months)...that is crazy! I have changed so much...
At work though, I made some new friendships which I am quite happy about. The little flirtations, the little talks, the laughter, the boyfriend problems, facing the realities of work in the real world...it was interesting...! At some moments, I thought I want this for the rest of my life...yet at the same time, I also saw the monotoniety of the working life. I started wondering how will I avoid it because...I will get quite bored...maybe challenges will keep me going...hopefully! When I used to work, my mind used to wander to so many thoughts and I used to think so much...and it would drive me crazy sometimes...
Anyways, I am not a big shopper but I shopped a lot this summer...
Infact, I promised my mom that I will make an effort to look decent...! I have been successful so far, but only so far!
It is also funny how you just snap out of some things...like...I wanted to go to India so badly over the summer...but now that I am in college...I am really having a hard time deciding whether I should spend that $1400-1500 that I literally earned by sweating out my blood...(not even that dramatic but close enough! ;)) It is hard...it is so strange how you just change...one minute you can want something so badly and then in the next few weeks...you just grow out of it.
This proves the power of rationalizing...you will grow out of everything eventually! hehe!
Anyways, my best friend went to India...and had quite a few stories to tell me...which were quite interesting...and maybe if I was just a bit younger or if my mindset was a bit different, that alone would have been enough to make me want to go to India...but...not anymore...!
I wonder...
Usually, people don't reach this stage for quite a few years later or so I have heard but I am just so strange in so many ways...!
I do wonder...well not so much anymore since I am so busy these days...12-hour days? WOW!!! Never had those before...
It is like wake up in the morning at around 9 and then go to classes and have a few meetings..and then proceed on to work and present workshops...and then get home at around 10 or 11 pm at night!!!
Is that crazy or what? It is fun at the same time...being so busy....and just not having time for anyone...(that sounds mean) but it really is nice to be busy...!
So many things I have learnt about myself over the past summer...and still learning and exploring and finding out characteristics that I never deemed possible!!! Will this journey ever end?
It all comes back to the evolutionary question: What do I exactly want? Really, what do I want!
I suppose I am finding out! :P
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Sunday, August 5, 2007
A lesson about liberalism...
First of all, I just wanted to dispel some notions that people have regarding what liberalism is.
People for some reason intertwine the word liberal and fear with each other. I see no logical pathway to such a conclusion, but anyways...
So, someone asked me if you are afraid of the death...and I said "not particularly, if it is going to come...then it will come"...
Then, that same someone proceeds to tell me that you are afraid of death because you are afraid...afraid because you are not even willing to try wine.
And then he said some things along the lines of being liberal.
At this moment, I had to say something...something that brought him to reality.
People, People, People:
If you think that liberalism is about being drunk every night, or having sex with a different woman every night...or even the Eastern cultures adapting the western ideas about clothes and such...Nope..that is a very strong misconception...
Being liberal is about being open-minded and willing to explore new things not necessarily in the arenas of alcohol and sexuality.
Being liberal is also about embracing other cultures and the individual identities that come with it, not being a stereotypical ass especially about African-Americans or any such cultures.
Being liberal is just not about wearing short minis and revealing tops; it is about the mindset. You might show yourself to be the most liberal person in the world by being westernized but you need to realize that westernization is not what makes you liberal...it is all about the thoughts...if you don't have the open minded thinking to go with your actions...your actions will just seem fickle and futile and then...you are not a liberal at all!
Liberalism is also about respecting women and giving them as much say as men get.
Liberalism is also listening to women's opinions and concerns for the world today...it is about embracing the world of co-dominance in a world of male dominants.
Liberalism is standing up for issues that are not necessarily convenient in every way (like gays' rights), it is not about scorning people who are not similar to you.
I dislike people who have such stereotypes about others and are not willing to look at any scientific proof even though they are wrong!
Don't preach about liberalism to me...first, get your definations straight! :)
People for some reason intertwine the word liberal and fear with each other. I see no logical pathway to such a conclusion, but anyways...
So, someone asked me if you are afraid of the death...and I said "not particularly, if it is going to come...then it will come"...
Then, that same someone proceeds to tell me that you are afraid of death because you are afraid...afraid because you are not even willing to try wine.
And then he said some things along the lines of being liberal.
At this moment, I had to say something...something that brought him to reality.
People, People, People:
If you think that liberalism is about being drunk every night, or having sex with a different woman every night...or even the Eastern cultures adapting the western ideas about clothes and such...Nope..that is a very strong misconception...
Being liberal is about being open-minded and willing to explore new things not necessarily in the arenas of alcohol and sexuality.
Being liberal is also about embracing other cultures and the individual identities that come with it, not being a stereotypical ass especially about African-Americans or any such cultures.
Being liberal is just not about wearing short minis and revealing tops; it is about the mindset. You might show yourself to be the most liberal person in the world by being westernized but you need to realize that westernization is not what makes you liberal...it is all about the thoughts...if you don't have the open minded thinking to go with your actions...your actions will just seem fickle and futile and then...you are not a liberal at all!
Liberalism is also about respecting women and giving them as much say as men get.
Liberalism is also listening to women's opinions and concerns for the world today...it is about embracing the world of co-dominance in a world of male dominants.
Liberalism is standing up for issues that are not necessarily convenient in every way (like gays' rights), it is not about scorning people who are not similar to you.
I dislike people who have such stereotypes about others and are not willing to look at any scientific proof even though they are wrong!
Don't preach about liberalism to me...first, get your definations straight! :)
The perfect couple...
He should be...
Moral enough to stand by his principles
Rogue enough to ignite passion
Tender enough to hold hands
Persuasive enough to get what he wants
Intelligent enough to know when it is enough
Sweet enough to make it last
She should be...
Simple enough to be herself
Stylish enough to turn heads
Confident enough to realize her worth
Passionate enough to seduce
Careless enough to be excited
Smart enough to prove herself
Also...one should remember is takes two to make it and two to break it as well!
Moral enough to stand by his principles
Rogue enough to ignite passion
Tender enough to hold hands
Persuasive enough to get what he wants
Intelligent enough to know when it is enough
Sweet enough to make it last
She should be...
Simple enough to be herself
Stylish enough to turn heads
Confident enough to realize her worth
Passionate enough to seduce
Careless enough to be excited
Smart enough to prove herself
Also...one should remember is takes two to make it and two to break it as well!
Friday, August 3, 2007
Him and Her...(Please dont assume anything till you read the end! :))
She wept her eyes out
For the one
She loved the most
ripped her heart right out
The promise of kisses and love
He made
Yet when the time came
He ran away
Hardly caring about
What she felt or said
He could only see
That a mistake had been made
Manipulated and deceived
She was
From her one and only love
And beloved
Thank god, her pride
Held its ground
Or she shudders to think
What she would have found
She gave him the importance
No man deserved
Yet he failed to see
Her concealed hurt
Walking alone at night
With a shattered soul
She finds solace
By penning her thoughts
Changes that are irreversible
Are here to stay
I wonder what possessed her
To give her heart away
She will do what she has to do
Since a broken heart will not
Deter her so, but he will regret
The night he let his interior show
Yes, she is strong
But a vulnerable creature too
And yet he refused to
Mend her broken heart
She does not seek revenge
And neither his passion
But simply the courtesy
Of a similar reciprocation
She put on the façade
Of sheer practicality
But he should have
Understood her veneer
Memories fade away
And these will too
But he will repent
The night he let her go
Such passion and care
Is not found commonly on the road
Yet sometimes it is bestowed
Upon some worthless souls
Someone had it right
Expressing your words
Make the load of mind light
But sadly this happens
And is the story
Of every him and her out there
Struggling tonight
As I finished writing this,
A smile spread across my face
The culprit “hunger” was
Behind this comical yet sad escapade
For the one
She loved the most
ripped her heart right out
The promise of kisses and love
He made
Yet when the time came
He ran away
Hardly caring about
What she felt or said
He could only see
That a mistake had been made
Manipulated and deceived
She was
From her one and only love
And beloved
Thank god, her pride
Held its ground
Or she shudders to think
What she would have found
She gave him the importance
No man deserved
Yet he failed to see
Her concealed hurt
Walking alone at night
With a shattered soul
She finds solace
By penning her thoughts
Changes that are irreversible
Are here to stay
I wonder what possessed her
To give her heart away
She will do what she has to do
Since a broken heart will not
Deter her so, but he will regret
The night he let his interior show
Yes, she is strong
But a vulnerable creature too
And yet he refused to
Mend her broken heart
She does not seek revenge
And neither his passion
But simply the courtesy
Of a similar reciprocation
She put on the façade
Of sheer practicality
But he should have
Understood her veneer
Memories fade away
And these will too
But he will repent
The night he let her go
Such passion and care
Is not found commonly on the road
Yet sometimes it is bestowed
Upon some worthless souls
Someone had it right
Expressing your words
Make the load of mind light
But sadly this happens
And is the story
Of every him and her out there
Struggling tonight
As I finished writing this,
A smile spread across my face
The culprit “hunger” was
Behind this comical yet sad escapade
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