Why do I feel this...?

I wonder why I feel like I am lacking something in my life. Everyday and every night, I always feel like I am missing something. What can it be? What could it be?
Why is this happening to me?
I have always been a happy person, and I still am yet I feel compelled to think about issues I never have before.
Maybe that is the problem, we all take refuge in being busy and that is how we avoid assessing our inner peace and and state.
That is what I did even without realizing it and still people do it all around me.
But since I have been to college, I have had time to think and ponder about myself...and I have discovered that there is something missing.
I don't know what it is. It is not the need for someone. It is simply a need to do something. Maybe a sense of adventure or thrill, just something out of the ordinary...something that will take me away from this monotonous life.
I have never said such depressing things or even thought of being depressed and I am not...yet there is something lacking.
It is not enough to have a job and to be a volunteer...there needs to be something else...there has to be...what can it be?
Maybe everyone passes through this stage...and I have always been a thinker and I am still thinking...but what can it be?
I know I can put on a mask or hide by being busy, but maybe I don't want to...yes...I don't want to because I want to go to the core of the issue and know why I feel this way.
This led to me think that will I ever be satisfied in a such a monotonous life. I see my parents...what does their life consist of? Going to work, coming back, cooking or doing some house chores and then sleeping and the cycle is repetitive with the exception of weekends where they will socialize but then again...mostly with the same people.

I don't know what I want.

I thought I wanted the success and the career, which I still do but money is not that important. It is important enough for me to pursue a degree but materialistic things like a city life and lavish lifestyle...don't matter anymore...maybe there is something more worthwhile in store. I do hope there is.
I am lacking nothing in life...in fact these days...I have no tension about anything yet I feel like I am lacking something.
Maybe I do thrive when I am tense, busy, and always running from here to there...and that is how I was in high school...never had time...literally never had time!

I hope this feeling dissolves on its own as I start working while pursuing other ambitions...
I know students my age don't really think about such things...I know my friends don't and very few people and if they do...those friends are quite older then why am I hitting these feelings right now? Why can't put them back and just have *FUN*...maybe there is a price for upholding all the morals and principles that I do...and maybe the price is this feeling...!

Just a year ago, the home I am in right now was my sweet little home...my little refuge and my haven of privacy...but now it seems like a constraint maybe even a restricted area where I am subjected to...

I wish I could just get up and go without answering any questions to anyone...get up and go on a journey of my own...be spontaneous and let life take me where it can...and I could just experience the world like that...

Hmm...I do wonder...! Expression is a strong thing...I have really come to respect the people who do express and I suppose this is my way of expressing myself!
Am I getting ***OLD***? OH NO!!!

Maybe become an airhostess for a year and just fly all around and see what I want to...maybe it is all about how the grass seems greener on the other side...!