It is not worth it...not about a lesbian lover but a friend!

I woke up this morning
Feeling all blue
With one issue on my mind
That refuses to get a clue

Waking up with nightmares
For the past two weeks
I realize her happiness
Is not worth my sanity

I do care for her
And I will continue to be
But not enough for her
To evade my mindful peace

You might be thinking
That I have changed
But it is a dilemma
That is eating me alive

Wandering the quad
Like a lost soul
So many decisions to be made
By my poor heart core

Never use the heart
In the battle of wits
Or your sympathetic ass
Will end up in a fix

She refuses to listen
Being adamant at every stage
I am not some teaching fairy
That will chastise her every turn

I know I am asking for a bit
But how can I not
These basic courtesies
Should be prevalent in all

I won’t compromise any longer
For the sake of another
This frustration will further built
And eventually I will fall


I won’t ask her to change either
The best way is to separate our paths
Before it is too late and
Becomes a permanent mark

Partially influenced by others
I made my previous decisions
But they are not living it
So I would eventually blame them

I have come to a conclusion and
If my judgment turns out to be an error
I will be solely to blame
And I will live with the result without complain

I am tired of this endless bitching
And constant aggravation
I want to be as direct as possible
And let her finally know

Yes, there is some guilt in leaving
Someone stranded midway
But knowingly killing yourself
Is the worst case of helplessness

I have made a decision and I will let it be
Regardless of whether I will be considered
THE ULTIMATE ADVERSARY