Sunday, April 29, 2007

Am I romantic or not?

Oh yeah, for the past few days...people have been questioning my romanticism and some even went as far as saying that I might be delusional in the my romantic ideas. I wonder...

This made me think...is it acceptable to want a short term fling when you like someone else to a much deeper level but they are not with you?
I don't know. A few months ago, I would have answered either of the two ways depending on my mood:

1) Ofocurse, you should always be looking for something better constantly and if you find something better...GO FOR IT!!!

2) Ofcourse not, if you like someone to such a deep extent, you devotion should be only for that one and only person. You should be willing to accept that commitment and so on.

Today, I will say it is all relative. If you don't have that deep person, then is it fair to deprive yourself of little pleasures around you especially if the other doesn't care a damn and has done the same. But then again, just because he has done the same doesn't mean I need to as well.
Agreed, but sometimes...how often can I be the bigger person. At some point and time, I should be allowed to do just what my mind says or heart wishes rather than being the better person all the time.

Infact, I think I have been the bigger and better person many times in my life...it doesn't really give as much satisfaction as people claim. Often times, it just leaves me frustrated and thinking but I still never impose. I don't like to...that would be a weakness...and why do that...?

Interestingly enough, this is not really coherent but it is okay. You will get the point! :)

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

ahh well follow my lead. be wicked!!

you-know-who