My aspirations & decisions...

Today was a day of revelations...
Usually, I am a very happy person and I am right now as well as I am writing this...

This will be a bit of a contrast to my previous posts but I believe this is what my true calling is.
Personally, I am not giving up on romance or love but I am just putting it on hold till I enter the professional world. I am putting it on hold because I am clearly surrounded by immature men who don't even know the meaning of passion. It is not their fault, it is clearly not. They are just so young that they have't been exposed, but that doesn't mean I will compromise just for the sake of having something.

Also, I realized all these little romances and all...everyone else does that. Reality check, I am better than that. I am above all that. I am above the norm and the common. I have always thrived to be and will continue to be in this aspect of life too.

This is what I have always aimed to be and I don't know what happened my first year in college. I went from being a focused and ambitious girl to being like any other commoner and thinking about romance and love and what all that signifies. Sounds pretty harsh right? But it is a though process...can't help it.
I don't want to be a sweetheart or a sweet babe or a sweety or a cutie or anything along these lines. The point is I am not.

I am a focused and an ambitious woman. I know what I want from my life...I was just a bit distracted these past two semesters, but it is all coming back and I am loving it.

These are my short-term goals:

1) I want to graduate in 3 years with a Bachelors in Integrative Biology and a minor in Business Administration or possibly a major.
2) During this winter, I want to go to India and do some research regarding the AIDS awareness issue and possibly make that my research paper and experience.
3) This summer, I want to work. I want each hour of my day to be filled so that I have no room to waste time on the internet or any such.
4) This summer, I will put in the effort to make our house sell so my parents can move to the house of their dreams.
5) I want to study and be self-disciplined.
6) Come Fall, I want to be as busy as hell and I believe I will be.
7) I will be working two jobs and I have a pretty hectic schedule and I want straight A's so I will achieve them.
8) I want to start studying for GMAT and GRE, so I can have a strong foundation and be satisfied with my results when the time rolls around.
9) By the end of this summer, I want a gorgeous body for my own sake.
10) I want to be mistress of time-managment. I want to learn the ins and the outs.

A bit of the long-term side:

1) I want to get my MBA and MPH (Masters in Public Health) and move on to either working with a government agency or a pharmaceutical company or some non-profit organization.
2) I want to volunteer my time either in India again regarding the AIDS cause or maybe in terms of improving poverty.
3) I want to move to Australia and enjoy my life a bit.
4) I want to be a powerful businesswoman who realizes what it takes to get to the top position.
5) Eventually, I want to be a CEO of the company whose cause I believe in.

*** I want to be a woman who does what she says, achieves what she believes, and becomes what she claims.***

I do not wish to be one among many. I refuse. I will be at the top. I will take advantage of every opportunity presented to me. I will be self-disciplined and not succumb to the innate desires that most people do.

I don't believe my above goals leave much time for romantic philanderings. Sure, flirtations are fine.

Why the above? Because I have realized I want to date powerful men. Men who know what they want from their life, men who share the passions I do, men who are not afraid to *think*, men who treat you as an equal, men who appreciate the power I hold, men who realize what a real woman is, men who are just men rather than boys getting a heady rush from the simplest things.

But this will require patience. I will work on that as well. In the end, I will revert to being myself. The self independent woman who asserts her opinions and does what she thinks is right rather than be influenced by anything anyone else says.

I know what I am. I know I can have anyone I want. I have always had that ability in the past and I retain it now as well. I know I can, but I should just want him enough. Currently, nobody captures my interest to that extent, so I don't put in the effort. Infact, the men I am surrounded by are just not worth my attention but I endowed it on them anyways. I realized my mistake...now to embark on a journey of self-improvement!

***All the women out there, remember that men come and go but your career makes you the woman you are! Never forget this. We often do. ***

Finally, I have always been told I am a gem, but gems are just semi-precious stones that are rare yet quite abundant. I want to be a diamond, the rarest of them all. I know I will be! :)